OH GOD, I MISS HIM BADLY

kelmarin semalam harini esok lusa tulat and all times aku asyik tingat kat die jee.
bosan lah! but please, i won't let him go. i miss him badly. i really do, i really really do.

oh god, i dont know what to say now. mesti korang pk, eiuww, fara ni dah org tak suke tu tayah la nk tekeja kejakan die. well, i know. guys, korang takkan paham. kalau la diberi pluang kedua, siyes aku takkan biakan die pergi camtu je. fadel, you know what, everytime kite gado, i feel like, oww im silly, i make him mad again. bodola. after that mesti i cryyyy punye! ahh, cakap kt sini pn msti you pk i ni tipu je. hell no! i btol btol tak leh trime yang you asyik asyik mara i. idk, idk what i suppose to do. i'd try to make you happy, but noww, you find another girl to make you happy. even you tak de hubungan ngn girl tu, i rase you dah permainkan i. ahh, shitttttt. you tak pena cite problem you kat i. why? sape i ni? your gf or what?? bile seronok seronok jangan harap la nak msg i ke ape, bile you bosan je baru cari i. thats why la i terase and then emo lah. you plak tak suke i emo emo. well bese lah, perempuan. sometimes mesti nak manje manje sket ngan boyfie die. you tak penah paham perasaan i kalau i ade problem. you wat endah tak endah je. nape fadel? nape you wat i cani? ape salah i?! fadel, sorry i still love you. i, idk why! i miss that the way you hold my hand , oh so sweet. honey, every words you say, every parts you touch, every smile you make, i still remember and i will keep them in my pocket memory.

fadel, you tau tak, how lucky i am because i've a great and wonderful times with you. i dont care what people said about us. i really miss the moment when we laugh, playin, joking and all what we do together, its still fresh in my mind. and now how regret i am when the sweet moments we take might hurt . i couldn't believe this would happen to us. i thought we'r going to love each other untill the end of the day.

seriously, i tak boleh lupekan you . i just wanna tell yall , fara miss him so badly. fara pun punya perasaan. ade orang cakap fara ni happy go lucky je, selalu gelak keh keh keh :B, selalu wat orang gelak, selalulah tak reti dok diam, and selalu sangat wat syok sana sini. hah but dalam hati siapa tahu?

perhaps, dia dah bosan dengan aku. aku sedih sangat tauu. kalau la masa bole berundur, aku akn cube sedaya upaya aku buat dia happy dengan aku. aku harap semua ni takkan berakhir mcm ni je.here the pics that always playin around in my mind.

you ingat lagi tak kat belakang ts tu kite wat pe ngan ejad sekali? ..

haha time ni ade amoy tu tengok kite begamba kat kedai die .

soryy maa, i just wanna take picture with my boy because i'm worry if we're not together to come your shop again.

and

hah, this picture was took by ejad.

muke you blur sangat. i ingat lagi,

you tak taw nak pose camne.

i malu tau ngan ejad, then you cakap

isk, tak payah malu lah. nak begamba je.

i pon tesengeh sengeh la :'B

sometimes im wonderin

are we gonna end our relationship just like this ?

so this is the end of the story ?

i dont know.

and i hope we’ll both turn back and fix it together

i promise to love you and hold your hand every single day. i promise this . i promise this .

baby